I Am NoT HaPPy BuT SaD

hi . today i woke up quite early because i know i will be having my first flight since i came back to sydney. is quite a tiring day because i din really slept well . i was urging for my flight and i felt a bit nervous at first . at 12.30 i change everythings and get ready to school . when i reach school , my intructor was not there becasue he was having a flight . so i waited him till 1. actually my bookings is at 1.30 . so when he is in the office, i went in and ask DAVE we are having a flight at 1.30 . he said ok . at first i saw him wanna cancel my booking, but at last he said go get ready with the aeroplane. i was a bit pleased to hear that . then he asked me , what are you up to ? solo check said. but i told him is bring a while since i fly. then he said dont tell me story just what are you up to . i said solo check . i was a bit piss . when i am in the aeroplane getting ready to taxing , i check and i tell him all the checks, he just like ignoring me. when during the taxing , i was suppose to do taxing check, but when i press on the breaks , he said dont and he ask me to shut up . did i done something wrong i was asking myself ? the answer is no . i did nothing wrong . when we are on the runabay, i was doing all my checks and he looked so unpatient. then he show me once for the circuits and then second i will do . when the i was about to land, he asked me to go around . actually the normal procedure for going around is make a radio call first . what i heard from him also he said make a radio call , then right after i make a radio call, he hit my hand . i was so shocked . and then i was already not in a mood to fly. then during the downwind , i make a radio call and i said TXO downwind for full stop. i was so piss already. when in the office ie wrote bad reports about me . oh gosh come on . and i said to myself i dont wanna lose any anger . then he scold me inside the office i just kept quiet . if once i voice up , it wontbe a good conclusion already. he can even scold with the fuck words . wow . i am kinda retarded . so thats fine . is the end of today . actually my tears is dropping out but i have to stand . i have to be hard to myself . what i want to said , my school sucks . i am already tired of it and even sick of it