i miss my beloved so much

its been almost 1 and half months since i have been in sydney . recently i really feel i am like doing ntg here .. wasting time and money here . but what kept me in mind is not more than 50 days i will be going back to see my beloved dear . i miss her so much . wow .. seriously damn a lot eh . i can defined how much i love her . i miss her .. i miss her kisses huggies and everything . i miss her voice too . she is now working , and i hope later she got back she can see this blog to tell her how much i miss her . i love her . nowadays the weather here is not really good due to the changes of the temperature . maybe because of this i am not really feeling well . i ate medicine . but once i think i am going back on may i am so fresh . so so so fresh . haha . 

i still remember i create a song for my dear ... i think she still remember this huh 

When i am so lonely
You are here to cheer up my life always
and i always love it 
because of you 
i swear i'll appreciate

You are my forever
So do i love you 
so do you love me 
Because i'm ready to sacrifice for you

Conclusion is i love you  DeaR PeNNy

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I LoVe YoU

its late . acutally now i am now on da phone with you dear . anyway dont jealous with the chat box k . you know how much i love you right . 

today i wanted to tell you when i start loving you. wow . when i think back is really a long story huh . i still remember when i was start getting worry about you is when i went neway for cin hing's birthday . the whole night i din really sing but just keep msg-ing with you . the next day if i not mistaken is a big day but i just cant remember whats that already. i came home at 6 plus am where my parents had wake up . i still remember the day you went to prom with me . wow . you are so cool . sweet . but just you are so shy . am i right ? then continue by playing basketball with you . haha . i still i bully you wo . you remember ? then the following week we went for a movie in gardens . you are so shy huh . haha . anyway i dont blame you because when you shy i can see your teeth shown out . then after that , we have not meet for a while due to my penang trip . right after next day i got back from penang , we went genting huh . we have out lovely sweet day there . then from that day onwards i have no doubt about having you . because i am having you start from that day . actually before that , i am quite hesitate to confess , but usually i dont confess right ? u know right ? haha .. actually dont need to confess you should know already one. anyway suddenly i just thought our sweet memory when i fetch you baack from work and then we eat together and sweet together . i really miss those days.

anyway i am so looking forward to may then i will be back to you . you miss me huh ? you love me ? i know you do. anyway once you wore that ring you already belong to me forever . am i right  ? i guess is right . anyway i just wanted to tell you i love you so much k

forvever love wo . nt bad huh . 

sam says : i know
penny says : cheh who want to be your forever wo ?
sam says : you REALLY dont know ?
penny says : ya la . i know . you still dare to find others ? i chop you into  5 pieces
sam says : haha . so you still havent answer whose your forever ?
penny says : me la . haiyo 
sam says : ok la . i got you then . you know i very "dan shun" ma
penny says : ( smiling with teeth)

sam says : you are so sweet & i love you so much 

I Am NoRmaL AnD MisS YoU DeaR

i guess i am writing in a quite a late time . due to my connection problem, at last my internet works during night . today i woke up quite late . around 1 plus i wake and talk to my dearest . yeah . i was so bored today . i rent 5 dvds home today so to pass my time . anyway i did ntg much today .


To My Dear

i want to tell you are mine 
i want to tell you are cute
i want to tell you are sweet
i want to tell you are lovely
i want to tell you are caring
i want to tell you are best
i want to tell you are pretty
i want to tell you are naughty sometimes
i want to tell you are gorgeous
i want to tell you are amazing
i want to tell you are unique

at last i want to tell you are mine forever , you are so cute that always fill in my heart . you are always sweet to me 24/7, we are always lovely to each other , you are the one who always care of me , thats why you are the best i have, you are so pretty and attractive . but you sometimes are quite naughty ( bla bla bla ) what i can say is you are gorgeous and amazing. you are so unique until i cant defined . 

what i can say here is you are my rest of the life . 

will you ever walk the rest of the journey of the life with me dear penny ?
ANSWER by Dear PeNNy : 

i am going stop typing . but before that, once more , i wanted to tell my dear i love you very much

I Am NoT HaPPy BuT SaD

hi . today i woke up quite early because i know i will be having my first flight since i came back to sydney. is quite a tiring day because i din really slept well . i was urging for my flight and i felt a bit nervous at first . at 12.30 i change everythings and get ready to school . when i reach school , my intructor was not there becasue he was having a flight . so i waited him till 1. actually my bookings is at 1.30 . so when he is in the office, i went in and ask DAVE we are having a flight at 1.30 . he said ok . at first i saw him wanna cancel my booking, but at last he said go get ready with the aeroplane. i was a bit pleased to hear that . then he asked me , what are you up to ? solo check said. but i told him is bring a while since i fly. then he said dont tell me story just what are you up to . i said solo check . i was a bit piss . when i am in the aeroplane getting ready to taxing , i check and i tell him all the checks, he just like ignoring me. when during the taxing , i was suppose to do taxing check, but when i press on the breaks , he said dont and he ask me to shut up . did i done something wrong i was asking myself ? the answer is no . i did nothing wrong . when we are on the runabay, i was doing all my checks and he looked so unpatient. then he show me once for the circuits and then second i will do . when the i was about to land, he asked me to go around . actually the normal procedure for going around is make a radio call first . what i heard from him also he said make a radio call , then right after i make a radio call, he hit my hand . i was so shocked . and then i was already not in a mood to fly. then during the downwind , i make a radio call and i said TXO downwind for full stop. i was so piss already. when in the office ie wrote bad reports about me . oh gosh come on . and i said to myself i dont wanna lose any anger . then he scold me inside the office i just kept quiet . if once i voice up , it wontbe a good conclusion already. he can even scold with the fuck words . wow . i am kinda retarded . so thats fine . is the end of today . actually my tears is dropping out but i have to stand . i have to be hard to myself . what i want to said , my school sucks . i am already tired of it and even sick of it 

FeEl a BiT WorrY

hi dear . as u force me to take picture of me about the plaster on my mouth there . you are the picture . both of the picture is my most recent picture . haha . to show you my face sin . later scare u will forget my look . u will ? i think you wont right . anyway now is almost 3 am sydney time . i am not really tired . maybe because i having my flight on this wednesday . i wish everything goes smooth because is been 3 months since i fly . i really scare i lost my touch . hope that i can get back the touch as soon as possible . i wanna finish half of my stuff before i go back . dont wanna waste time here adi . anyway after writing this blog . i will get to bed as i need to have rest . get well prepared for my wednesday flight at 4pm . hope the weather is good and i am able to take off and land the aircraft smoothly . actually i cant expect muuch for flying as i din fly for 3 months adi . now what i can do now is need to be hardworking . thats the thing i can do now . after i fly , on april 15 i m going to seat for my first CPL exam . hope i will pass and before i m going back to malaysia i hope i will clear minimum 2 papers . to prove to my parents i really work hard , the life here isnt difficult but is too free . i have to spent my time wisely and not wasting time by enjoying and drinking only .  i know is impossible for me to not enjoy here , but i have to control myself . not to over limit . as i promise my dear i will finish as soon as possible to get back to her . hugging and kissing her everyday . how lovely we are ?  i know although now we are temporally apart for a moment , but ntg can pull us away . i dont gv a damn on other people saying about long distance relatioship isnt working or what . but all friend here did that too . so am i . i told my parents i need money to pay food for the house . because one of my housemates came collect money from me . they din even think from the past weeks , i have been paying majorities of the house food and stuffs . did i ever calculate ? no i didnt . i just keep quiet and now they are asking me money . 20 dollars . it isnt much , but still i will think how good i  treated them . then now finally i get back this type of return . i really not satisfied . so i just called my mum to send me rm50 which is 20 dollars . but my mum sent me rm200 for me . i really thank you her . and even my dear penny , had sent me 660 dollars . i really thank you her and i really dont want things keep going like that , i wish my friends will just give me back money . from now onwardsd , i know how i should treat people . who treated me good and who treated me bad , i know . 

in this world there is only 3 person treated me good . 2 of them guarantee will be my mum and dad . they are the people who love me and treated me so well since i am born . i seriously were  a pampered child . but now i start to be independent . i cant depend on them forever . i have to start think about my future road i should go and walk .

lastly , the person besides my parents who treated me the best is my beloved PENNY LIM PEI NING or my dear lou poh . she is the one who always gives me uncountable supports and loves . thats why i really do appreciate what she did to me . hope you dont mind i say this word again .

 I LOVE YOU PENNY  Sooooooooo much !!!!!

I MiSs My deaR So MuCh

today my blog is also specially write for my dear . actually now u r currently eating outside your house . i purposely act angry . haha . play with you first . actually yesterday i wrote the 20 reasons why i love u so much . so today i will add another 80 for u k 

1) when i m lonely i will think about you only
2) miss your kisses
3)  miss your huggies
4) miss your voice
5) miss your smell
6) miss your naughtiness
7) miss your fight
8) miss your complaining
9) miss fetching you back from work a lot
10) miss the day at genting so much
11) miss the day at slept in the cinema so much !!! haha
12) miss your face
13) miss quarelling
14) miss your work uniform 
15) miss holding your hands
16)  miss your ' sui yang '
17) miss bullying you in bowling 
18) miss bullying you in basketball

19) miss carrying a heavy dear in genting
20) miss going out with you
21) miss the shy shy face you always give
22) miss the word calling me ' lou gong '
23) miss the word ' shui yao gei ni bao la ' 
24) miss the goodnight messages
25) miss the memory we have been
26) miss the first time i know you
27) miss the first time going with you
28) miss eating ice cream with you
29) miss the day we wearr formal
30) miss your shy face
31)  miss you singing like an angel
32) miss our couple shirt
33) miss the time you cry
34) miss your smile
35)  miss your ' bian chui '
36) miss your noisy
37) miss you making me laugh
38) miss you shaking your ass
39) miss your childishness
40) miss your love
41) miss your shout
42) miss your chubby look
43) miss your actioness
44) miss fethcing you everywhere
45) miss eating japanese food with you
46) miss when you smile with teeth
47) miss the day we were together
48) miss the stingyness of you
49) miss feeding you eat
50) miss the jokes from you
51) miss your morning look . blur look
52)  miss malaysia because miss you
53) miss fetching you home every night
54) thanks for your love
55) thanks for creating a blog for me
56) thanks for your everything
57) thanks for making me feel so in love
58)  thanks for missing me so much
59) thanks for making a so meaningful memo
60) thanks for your blanks christmas card
61) thanks for letting me treat you eat
62) thanks for letting me know there is forever love
63) thanks for being treating so good to me
64) thanks for being together with me
65) thanks for being so kind to me
66) thanks for being appreciate me so much
67) thanks for your help when i am in australia
68) thanks for supporting me
69) thanks for missing me so much 
70) thanks for your lovely smile
71) thanks for what you did to me 
72) thanks for accepting my love
73) thanks for you believing me
74) thanks for you giving me chance to take care you
75) thanks for your smile
76)  thanks for your kiss
77) thanks for your hug
78) thanks for you making me smile everyday
79) thanks for you letting me cheer up your life
80) thanks for you being "MY LIFE MY WOMEN"

wow . at last i finish writing this 80 reasons plus 20 yesterday . 

i dont wanna write much , i just want to let you know how much i love , miss ,  care you . you are so important to me . 

i am gonna end this conversation by saying " LOU POH AH LOU POH, WO HEN HEN HEN AI NI AH" 

HoW MuCh i LoVe My DeaR bAbY PenNy

today the topic i wanna write here is how much i love penny lim pei ning . wow . thats long story . i am afraid i wanna write till tomorrow also cant finish . 

ok start here . i will write 20 reasons why i love her .

1 i love penny because she is gorgeous

2 i love penny because she is so cute

3 i love penny because she is so pretty

4 i love penny because she is my only women

5 i love penny because she is my only one i will love till the end

6 i love penny because she is my forever

7 i love penny because she treats me the best

8. i love penny because she loves me so much too 
9 i love penny because she is so sweet

10 i love penny because she is so nice 

11 i love penny because she is best ever person i ever meet

12 i love penny because she is the one that i will love

13 i love penny because she is so different 

14 i love penny because she cares me so much

15 i love penny because she said i am the only person she will love till end

16 i love penny because she needs my love

17 i love penny because she is the person in my mind

18 i love penny because she is the only girl i want

19 i love penny because she is so pretty

20 i love penny because MY WOMAN MY LIFE

although is simple , but i just want to let me dear know how much i love her. 

LOVE YOU PENNY DEAR SO MUCH .. EVER AFTER

nOt a ReaLly HapPy DaY

today my day is quite bored also . what i can do now ? what i should do ? i wake up late today around 1 plus my dear call me . she is going to take her spm results . i wish good luck to her . after on the phone with her . i ate my breakfast , maggie mee . my dear dislike me to eat the most . haha 

then i with my 2 of my housemates head to centro . is a ashopping centre buy some house stuffs . my friend cooked curry chicken . it was awesome and i ate so much till i almost cant breathe adi . haha . because my dear is not having break during her break , so i din really talk much with her .

just now i went out , i brought the only 50 dollars i left , the gorgeous thing is i am the one who paid the house stuff . i paid 40 dollars , then i left 10 dollars . and also din mind much . what i mind is during night time me and my housemates all 6 ppl together went to sports club . they say want to play darts . so i just go only and i just wanna stay there enjoy and relax and so on . but unfortunately , i have only 10 dollars , maybe i think i m too easy going person , i use the 10 dollas to buy a jug of beer , share with them . i dont really mind . but what makes me so upset is my friend which have moneu just ignore and just drink only . but after finish drink he just keep quiet there . i really dont like tiz sort type of person . why we all go out should be calculative ? i really dont understand ? can anyone tell me ? please la .. we come out together of course to enjoy right ? even i left 10 dollars , i am willing to spent also . why they are like this ?  seriously i m not happy with this . this is not only once . anyway i am sad and i ask my mum to send me rm50 which is around 20 dollars to me . u know why ? i lent 20 dollars from my friend just now cause i need to buy something just now . because i dont really like to owe ppl money so i just need 20 dollars to return to my friend tomorow .. my housemates when he lent money  from me , what did he said ? next week i will return it to you . already 3 - 4 weeks . any single news from him ?  the answeris no . 500 dollars although is not really much , but i think is enough for the rest of the month till my parents send me money . i am really fed up and is really hard for me to stay in this house any longer.

finally i dont wanna touch on that topic adi . when i think , i am seriously not happy . 

what i thinking now is my dear . i miss her freaking a lot . i seirously cant wait to see her . i want to hug her kiss her . i love her so much . she is really my angel . i had promise i wont ever leave her alone because i WILL only be with her till the end of our life . we will be so sweet ever after . I ONLY LOVE HER

Quite a BoRed Day

today i wake up at 12 plus . but the weather is not good so i know i wont be flying so i did not go school , just stay at home for whole day . is quite a miserable life to be here actually . the fact is not only the life but also the people here who owes money dunno how to return back as well . really of sick of this type of person . i wont be lending people money . i sware . i hate ppl to act and pretend like nothing when owe me money . i am a bit of desperate for getting back the money because i left not much money . i dont really like to ive without money . is a fact that money is very important . although money is not everything but without money u cant survive in the world . i am so piss sometimes . 

but lucky all my life now full with love . my baby penny , my future , my lover , my everything . she everyday supports me and cheer up my day here . as normal i will be texting and on the phone with her as usual . more 9 weeks more then i will go home celebrate my dearest birthday . i am so happy . i wish that everyday i hold her hands walk on our journey . but i know soon it will be happening soon .  i know time pass and flies . so i will cherish my dear's life with full of excitement and enjoyment. we will ever happy live ever . 

SO SWeeT

JuSt A StaRt

wow . today i woke up at 11 am then i called my baby wake up . the bad is she accuse me for not waking her up . hor dear ? haha . anyway after tat i just on the phone with her a while then i went to school sign in then wd i got today is get to see my instructor . i am quite glad to hear tat maybe i can go for my first solo . maybe is justa start for me now . i still have lots to do . anyway i will keep going on progress . i know i will success one day . then i can have a good life to gv to my dear . u got it dear ? can your hear ? 

i just had my lunch not long ago . i am so full . seriously the life here is very boring . especially the course i m taking now is so freaking bored . there is too many time for me to spent . but i dont really know wad i gonna do . it is impossible that i go out everyday enjoy right ? but wad i learn now is i learn how to save money . wanna save lots lots money to spent .. hehe .. thats all i want now .

i miss my dear so much . i guess she does so . now is adi 5.30 and the time i pass here is very fast  . just hope everything goes smoothly . i m very looking forward to may19 . the day i will be back to malaysia for around 8 - 9 days . now wad i m planning is my dear's birthday . i wanna gv her some surprise which she nt been before . wad i suppose to do to make her happy ? haha

stuck ............ so stress to think .. haha . . anyway i already have some plan on my mind .. and my dear should roughly know wad's the plan i guess ..

anyway i will stop by here . ad be continue soon .. 

miss love my dear so much k ...

NeW

hi everyone . this is my first time i blogging . thx for my dear who created to this account for me . i do really appreciate what i am having now . so for now i dont think i can write anything much now . because i am still new . 

moreover , now i am currrently in sydney doing with my course . i really desperate to finish this course fast to see go home to see my beloved dear . anyway i will be meeting her soon on may . i'm so glad that i found her . anyway , the problem i m having now is my school . the weather here sucks and i cant do anything much . i wanted to see my intructor is also difficult . he seldom appear in school . whenever i go there , sure he wont be there . for now i just hope that i can get bookings to fly and finish it as soon as possible . dont wanna waste more time here and money .

i miss my dear so much . i love her too as i cant defined .

anyway i will update my blog soon